The Black Dog | My Depression Story // PART TWO //

On April 1, 2014 by Kate

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I received an overwhelming amount of support from so many people after publishing my first post on my depression story The Black Dog. Thank you to everyone who commented, tweeted or even just read my post, it means so much to me. Depression and anxiety affects so many of us (whether it be you, or a family member) and it can be crippling to you or those around you. I thought I would continue on with my story, and explain a few things as well.

One of the hardest things to do was admitting to my parents that I thought I had depression and anxiety. I went to the doctor and my first (unsuccessful) psychologist appointment before I told them. I was afraid that they might think I was weak for not dealing with it ‘like a grown up’ (this is something that I have spurred on myself.) but they were the exact opposite. They were both very understanding and my mum was the one who turned me to my amazing psychologist who I saw for 12 intensive weeks.

It is difficult to say whether talking to my psychologist, or the anti-depressants I take, work more. I think the combination of the two was the reason that I have learnt to deal with my depression and anxiety so successfully. Psychologists can not prescribe any medication (psychiatrists can) so I was working intensively with both my GP and my psychologist to find the best balance for me. Everyone is different when it comes to medication and therapy, so it’s important to go in with an open mind and try your best to focus on the end goal.

I was hesitant to talk about medication, because it is very controversial. But I really feel that it helped me in my situation so much. It may not work for everyone, but I honestly believe that it has done so much for my situation. The medication I am on works really well now, but when I began my course, I felt a lot of nausea, light headedness and general blah feelings. It took about 4 weeks for my body to feel completely back to normal (but better). Also, I have to be very careful to remember to take the medication. Even missing a couple of days and I notice that I am getting very emotional and out-of-control of my feelings.

Something else that I discovered with my psychologist was the reason behind the depression and anxiety. We knew what had brought the issues to a head, but it’s important to differentiate between environmental issues and genetic issues. I will talk about these two different types in my next post if anyone is interested.

It’s also important to note that I still do have down, depressing days. It’s not all sunshine and lollipops after therapy and medication. I still have very difficult days, but after learning more about cognitive behaviour therapy, I am so much better equipped to work it out.

I hope this post still helps a bunch of people, and let me know if you are interested in knowing more about environmental vs genetic issues.

Stay Minty.

Kate Xx

  • Stephanie

    Thank you for sharing your story, I can relate. I tried to deal with my depression on my own and did not want to see my doctor because I did not want to take any medications. I finally realized that my situation was not going to improve on it’s own and I went to see my doctor. While I am doing much better I do still have days where my feelings get the best of me, also like you if I accidently miss my medication (one day is usually ok but if I miss 2 days things get bad for me).